The time has come!
Who knew I would someday give a talk on this…haha! God, You knew. Tonight, I’ll be talking about Agape Love, through the Scripture of the Prodigal son and pieces of my own story.
Wow.. After going through my talk a couple more times, I suddenly had an urge to read my old journal. My OTHER journal- the one I used from Freshman year all the way to part of my Junior year.
As a Sophomore after Mark Camp:
"Lord, thank you for being with me the entire time. Thank you for blessing me and providing me with the love I don’t deserve, the people I could only dream of, and the patience I longed to gain the past year, which was full of stumbling blocks and mistakes.
Help me find my identity in You alone.”
As I read my entries.. I laugh at the silly things I did, smile at the memories, and feel my heart twinge through my broken cries. I had so many questions. Some are still unanswered. I had so many doubts and fears. Some are still there. But I am blown away by the full picture of everything that has happened in my life. I’m still learning things about myself and about You.
Who knew I’d someday be on the other side: On the stage.. when I used to sit in those chairs. As a speaker, I believe You are moving in the lives of these students. Each and every one. I mean, hey, I’m still here, right? A living, breathing testament of what You can do! XD haha Anything is possible with You.
It’s so clear to me now.. that as a Freshman, I’d been searching for love. But it wasn’t rooted in Agape Love. I dove into Philia(Friendship) and Eros(Romantic) without You, and made a really big mess…But You were able to redeem it all, and still show me so much grace. I’ve gotten to experience so many new things. I’ve gotten to meet more wonderful people! And I’m thankful for the ways You’ve used me to love others…that I get to see You moving in their lives.
In the ways that I’ve been hurt.. the ways that I longed to be loved… You prompted me..and asked me “Why don’t you demonstrate the love you wish to feel? How should we love one another?”
Love is patient, kind, not envy, not boast, not proud, not rude, not self-seeking, not easily angered, keeps no record of wrongs, doesn’t delight in evil, always protects, trusts, and perseveres
Love never fails.